Tak bercahya

aku kira ini terang
aku kira ini cahaya
namun aku salah
persepsiku salah

aku berada dalam gelap
aku terdampar dalam cahaya tak berwujud
ku bergetar
namun aku cukup kuat

kini aku sadar
aku cukup mampu bertahan
bertahan dalam fana nya kegelapan
aku dapat bertahan dari tusukan gelap

aku bangkit
bangkit tanpa melawan
gelap adalah temanku
gelap adalah teman setiaku

teman setiaku dari waktuku yg hilang..gelap

help me fix this circle

we know this circle has broken, should we move?for now, i dont think so. let's fix it. help me, just support what i've decided.

"..when my time comes forget the wrong that i've done, help me leave behind some..leave out all the rest.."

i'm a glass, a glass with full of water. cant receive the water anymore, get some and throw away and then fill it again. or break the glass, find the new one..

got nothing

Opened the dashboard, but I just got nothing to write. Bukannya ga ada, ada. Just don't know from which part I should begin. let it be, I'll try to post it tonight. Much words stay inside my head in a quite night

muse-ing

sorry: for the tears, I can't be the best, I painted wounds and pains inside yours, I carved dissapointed, I broke promises, I let you fall, I let you being alone, I left you.

thankyou: for everything that you've given to me.

once again, sorry I cant be like what do you want

attitude

attitude kayaknya emang udah kacau di kalangan remaja. Banyak yg berkoar koar ngeluarin kata kata terkotor yg mereka punya buat ngehujat orang. Yang dihujat terkadang ga tanggung tanggung, keluarga.

Look into your self, udah seberapa hebatnya diri kalian tanpa mereka yg kalian hujat dengan kata terkotor kalian. I think all of you just haven't realize how worth they are. Pikirkan baik baik, jangan mau dikuasai emosi, percaya aja diri kalian punya sisi positif yg bisa ngalahin emosi, sadari siapa sebenarnya mereka yg kalian hujat. can you live without them? you need more education, not in academic, but in personality, in your attitude.

"..We just need more education, stay put and never stop, do everything you can,to fix your self and everything that is around you.."

new season

Monday, July 12..new season of students.yak, senin besok udah mulai tahun ajaran baru. I'll start my new season at Smansa. Jadi murid baru, yg kemaren2 jadi Senior sekarang balik jadi Junior. Uniform SMP diantara lautan Putih Abu Abu agak ga enak rasanya, baju sekolah pun belum dijahit dari pihak sekolah, tapi biarlah yg penting harus bisa adaptasi dengan baik disana.

yap, new season. This season, we're (me and her) not going to the same school. She's on 8, and I'm 1. We'll try how difficult this relationship is, going to different school. Last year, we had to go to the same school, completing each other, but tomorrow everything will be different. Anyway, it's getting harder. Surely I hope we could be alright again, enjoy what we have. Even it's hard.

new season, hope it'll be better season. Banyak perubahan yg positif, walaupun masih susah. Harus adaptasi lagi, mulai dari 0 lagi.

"..suara kita melayang di udara..mari semua, kita melangkah dengan langkah yg tegap.."

looking back

yup, pasca sibuk pendaftaran sekolah akhirnya Alhamdulillah aku diterima di SMAN 1 Pekanbaru, thankyou so much god. buat yg gagal masuk ke sekolah impian kalian never give up guys. maybe you can find your stairway to your dreams there. just believe it, dan coba ikhlas :)

masuk disana juga ngebawa bahagia ga buat aku, tapi kedua ortu. aku ngerasa senang ngeliat raut wajah ceria mereka, sekali lagi thanks god. tapi perjuangan ga sampai disini, masih banyak ujian dan titik titik yg harus aku sambungkan menuju garis sempurna kehidupan. i'll try as possible as i can.

dan satu yg jauh disana juga udah pulang dari jauhnya. kita jalan lagi, tapi kali ini kita nginjak duri kecil yg nusuk kita berdua. ya itulah a relationship. but i believe everything's gonna be okay.

"..when i look back so many things I should regret...I'll comeback and try when I know I'm a better man.."-s.i.d.