Tanti Auguri, Papa !

April 21st, welcome to the older age dad. it's been 54 years you fight this world. got knowledges, full of faith, wasting tears, shouting laughs, be a great leader, a great priest.
Selamat menjajaki dunia yg semakin tua dan juga usia yg tak juga muda, pa. Semoga 54 tahunmu terhitung sebagai Amalan amalan mulia di mata Yang Maha Kuasa.
54 tahun, pastinya sangat banyak pelajaran yg Papa peroleh di Dunia ini. Semoga pelajaran itu kelak akan berguna bagi kami anak dan cucumu, pa. Semoga semuanya begitu bermakna dan begitu bermanfaat.

Selamat Ulang Tahun, Papa.
Keep great, wish you a sweet life, a sweet story. a bunch of love from your children.
We Love You, Dad.

-little pray and present from your son-

"a song for dad"

I was listening to simple plan's song, "perfect". also had a little conversation with my friend, about life, and also future. result: we both feel guilty.

those feelings start from this song:

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

what youve given to your parents?think back, you'll also feel guilty as what i feel.
dont ever think that you're the best and you're everything.
that song could be your letter for your dad.

lost

penulis hilang arah. tersesat tanpa penunjuk. tanpa penuntun. tak lagi piawai menentukan titik dan koma. hilang, lenyap, ditelan kebutaan arah.

Happy Birthday, Mama

Waktu terus berjalan, semua perlahan berganti. Dunia menua, begitu juga penghuninya. 2 April 1961, ya, tepat 50 tahun yg lalu ibuku terlahir di dunia. Aku tidak cukup tau bagaimana sejarah kehidupan ibuku di masa kecil dan masa remajanya. Yg aku tau sekarang, beliau adalah sosok Wanita terhebat dalam kehidupanku.
Bersama ayahku, beliau membimbingku hingga tumbuh seperti sekarang, yg memang belum mencapai titik sukses kehidupan. Untuk sekarang, aku hanya bisa merangkai kata kata untuk mama.
Selamat Ulang Tahun, Ma. Semoga di usia yg memang akan terus berkurang engkau menjadi sosok mulia di mata Allah, diberikan kesehatan, diberikan rezeki yg tak terputus, selalu menjadi sosok wanita hebat dan kasih sayang kami anak anakmu dan cucumu terus mengalir kepadamu.

Sekali lagi, Tanti Auguri Mama ! We love You ♥